Day 16 and 17: 31-Day Self-Love Diet Writing Challenge
Apologizing to Yourself and Committing to Change
I have been focusing on these two aspects the last day and a half and here are my thoughts with where I have been at emotionally, physically, spirituality, and mentally.
Body: I apologize for far too often pushing you too hard. I apologize for the pain you are in physically, even though it is not my or your fault. I apologize for the suffering you undergo and am sorry that the medical system does not support you in the way you need. I commit to allowing you more time to rest, play with your puppy, feel others’ love, and take comfort in the fact that I love you and no matter what I try always to have your best interest at heart. I commit to continuing to allow myself the time to heal and to practice more patience when things are not happening as fast as I would like.
Emotion self, I honor and see the difficulty you have in trusting people. For good reason. I am sorry for the emotional abuse and hardship you endured, and I also recognize that your powerful vulnerability is a gift you give yourself and others. It has never hindered your healing; it has only provided a guide. I commit to listen to you, my intuition, and work this year to build trust therapeutically, intimately and hopefully in the search for a partner. I commit to honoring my struggle to trust and work on this so I can have and manifest that in which I desire.
Mental self, I am sorry for the sometimes high and unrealistic expectations I put on you. I know that you feel like you have to do a million times more than anyone else to feel even equal, and I am here to tell you that is not true. I am sorry for the lies and demons you have had to deal with and go through instilled and promoted this mentality within you. I commit to challenging my expectations and commitments for the higher good of myself and relationship with others.
Dear spirit, I apologize for not paying attention to your needs and grounding in you as often as I need. I am sorry for your mistrust in others and religions and commit to bringing in trust and exploration as I need you in my life more now than ever. More than ever, I need to trust–to trust others and create a circle or belongingnness within and without.
This self-love post was inspired by a 31-Day Self-Love Diet Writing Challenge prompt. Join us, and make self-love your New Year’s resolution this year!