I Am Not My Accomplishments

Day 14: 31-Day Self-Love Diet Writing Challenge

Confronting Your Thoughts

Dear Love Warrior Community.

Today is a great day to confront my thoughts as I am having some challenging thoughts that fit a theme that I have been working with and have struggled with for a while now.

The thoughts I have been confronting today are:

  • I wasted time by allowing myself to sleep.
  • I did not do enough today.
  • I wasted time and did not do enough.

I am aware that this is my Ego mind. I have been struggling the last five years with a chronic autoimmune issue, and it has required me to slow down. I had thought that I was progressing more than I was, and I have recently had a flare on top of having a cold and the flu. I found myself sleeping for 20 hours straight today before getting up at 7:30pm this evening.

Spiritually and physically, I know that rest is what I need to heal and recover from being sick. I too struggle with the feeling of missing out in life, with those I love and with having time to do the things I really want to. I am trying to have the uttermost compassion for myself, and I often struggle with not being able to do all of what I have crafted in my mind and yearn to.

My loving thoughts remind me that I have time and that the slowing down from chronic Lyme that I have had to do has gifts and reasoning.

I often battle with the “why” and how much longer do I have to deal with the lasting side effects. I know that there is meaning in this journey beyond my knowing.

Today, I struggle with Ego and wanting to feel “normal.” To be able to walk without pain, without my heart hurting, without feeling like I am a 90-year-old woman. From the outside, I look okay and sometimes this is hard, as it’s not something I talk about often.

I have to challenge the thought that I need to “be strong all the time.” Sometimes I feel like this is a burden and like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders. Sometimes it literally feels like that. I know I need to speak to these thoughts and out them into the light as they are not my whole truth.

I must release this energy and attention to heal and remind myself I am not what I do, accomplish, or my success. I am my heart, spirit, and being. I think that is all I have for tonight as I continue to work on my thoughts and return back to bed.

Many blessings,
Lindsey

This self-love post was inspired by a 31-Day Self-Love Diet Writing Challenge prompt. Join us, and make self-love your New Year’s resolution this year!

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